Never There

Without you in the house it seems so quiet,
Without you making a riot;
I still miss you either way,
I don’t have much to say;
I don’t really know you any way.

You’re always gone, it makes me sad,
To know I have a brother I’ve never had.
Come to think of it,
I don’t know any of you one bit.
I may always be grinning,
But there is a big hole in my heart that needs filling.

I feel empty inside,
Without my brothers by my side;
Knowing I’ve always been there,
But I’m wondering if you really care.

I know I’ve never dared,
But I’m asking now, do you really care?

I may hang out with you a bit,
My heart needs mending, not a first aid kit.

When I’m with my friends they talk about their
Sisters and brothers,
When they ask me about mine, I have to make up
Stories to tell others.

I feel as dead to you as can be,
I bet if some one close to you died, u might wish it was me instead
Who was dead.

You might not have known I felt this way,
But I just have to say,
What I’ve never dared,
But I’m asking now, do you really care?

When I hear people talking about their siblings,
It makes me sad,
To know I have brothers I’ve never had.

Troy is more my brother, even though he’s not,
But u see he filled part of that brotherly spot.
You may have families now all of you,
But remember I’m your family too!!!

You hang out with Nicky and Troy,
Maybe it’s because their boys;
But you make me feel left out,
A lot of times I’m left alone and I just want to scream and shout.

It may not be your fault because u were
Not taught to be a brother to a sister;
Which might have been what makes me at times so bitter.
I find myself not having emotions for any one,
It might be because of you guys,
Who seem to me always gone.

I see you all once in a while;
But those times are not enough to fill deep inside.

We have a lot to catch up on,
You might be surprised who I really am.
But don’t be surprised if I don’t speak,
You would be surprised how bitter I can be,
But ask questions, feel free;
I might answer we will see.

Once again I’ve never dared,
But I’m asking now, do you really care?

By Kelly-Ann Ho Sang